How To Love Yourself After Your Depression
You haven’t showered or brushed your teeth in days. Your hair all tangled, looking like a lion's mane, won't allow you to see your face; but you’re glad. It’s time to break out of the funk. You’ve cried for days, letting little things get to you. You know deep down inside that you’re bigger and stronger than this depression. Get out of bed. Stop sleeping the days away, letting your youth slip out of the tips of your fingers. You can’t get time back, and you’re wasting it away. Put on some uplifting music; something that lifts your spirits and alleviates your soul from all the heartbreak and pain. Listen to some Willow, Female Energy part one and two. You love those songs. They make you feel as if you’re floating and her voice is ethereal to those depressed ears. It heals you from within, as if it were the unfound cure to the depression you’ve lived. Change those sheets and throw the old ones into the washing machine in hopes that the Gain will wash away all those tears you’ve cried. Throw the pillows in too, hell, you know how many times you’ve screamed in agony into them. They keep those screams embedded into their soft fabric like a secret. They won’t tell anyone, but the stains might give you away. While the sheets are being reset, go into the shower and scrub away the bad memories. Make sure not to use boiling hot water; you don’t need to hurt yourself anymore. You are better than that. Wash your hair and your face, step out and look at yourself in the mirror. Look at how beautiful you truly are; you are ravishing and radiate nothing but an immense amount of beauty. Brush your teeth and smile at yourself, that smile that makes people want to tell more jokes in an attempt to see it over and over again. Get dressed and put on a fresh pair of clothes, make sure to look your best, not because you plan on going anywhere but because today is a you day and it’s a good time for self-healing. Let’s clean up your room. Throw out everything that reminds you of your darkest days; tissues, garbage piled up in your room since you’ve barely left in the first place. You’ve been like a bear in hibernation. Put those cups and utensils in the kitchen. While you're there, don’t forget to eat; you’ve missed meals for the past few days. Make your favorite meal, you deserve it. Don’t force yourself to eat all of it, remember that during this depression, your eating disorder has taken control of you. Eat the most that your body can handle and be proud. You are almost there.
Now that you’ve covered the basics, grab a book, some snacks, and a blanket. Go to the park and find a nice spot in the grass. Play music from your classical music playlist and read your book. Take in the beauty of the nature surrounding you. The trees and the leaves swaying along with the wind as if they were welcoming and congratulating you for coming to see them. Look around you and close your eyes. Rely on your other senses instead of eyesight for a minute; feel the atmosphere around you and think, “I’ve made it. I have overcome this battle.” This won’t be the last time, and you know this, but you know you are stronger than the depression. Finally, smile. This will take time but with consistency and believing in the strength of your mind, you will overcome this time after time. Depression will not define you as a person. You are light, it is a time of darkness. It is temporary, but you? You are forever.
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